Lanham, Ryan, authorFletcher, Harrison Candelaria, advisorLangstraat, Lisa, advisorDiVerdi, Joseph, committee member2021-06-072023-06-022021https://hdl.handle.net/10217/232477This book is a memoir that traces my path of healing after reaching rock bottom with an earnest suicide attempt in October 2011, one year after completing my enlistment in the Army. Each chapter, except one, begins with an italicized scene that depicts a pivotal moment of miracle, magic, synchronicity, psychic reading, or psychedelic experience. The rest of the text attempts to decode and demystify these otherworldly moments, stringing them into a sequence of events that suggests a mysterious guiding force this life.born digitalmasters thesesengCopyright and other restrictions may apply. User is responsible for compliance with all applicable laws. For information about copyright law, please see https://libguides.colostate.edu/copyright.healingspiritualityaddictionveteransnonfictionTextAccess is limited to the Colorado State University community only.